One Year Later…

Today marks the one the anniversary of my mom’s death.

One year ago, I said goodbye. One year ago, I watched you die. One year ago, my heart was ripped in two. One year ago, I said, “I love you!”.

Living this past year without my mom is not something easily put into words.  It’s not something that I can describe in a blog or in tear filled eyes to my friends and loved ones.  This past year was painful.  The most painful year of my life.  Grief does something to a person.  They will never be the same.  I will never be the same.

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When my mom took her final breaths, I curled up in her arms, hugged her neck and said, “Go to Jesus.”  I have no doubt that my Savior came and took her home. I have no doubt that she is in the presence of the Almighty King, laughing with angels and dancing with my daddy.  I am blessed to know she has no more pain, that her suffering is over.  Our time on this earth is just a fleeting glimpse.  But when you are stuck in this time, it feels like forever.  It feels like forever since I saw her face, heard her voice or touched her hand.  It’s the little everyday things that you miss the most. 

My family is coming in to town today for our traditional balloon release. 

Here are some pictures from our balloon releases over this past year.

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I send up a prayer today for all the families all over the world that are suffering through grief.  To the wives, mothers, sons, etc. that are saying goodbye to their loved ones as I type.  And to all the ones who were not able to say goodbye before their loves ones passed. 

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Love you Mom!!!

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My mom back in October of 2000 waiting the arrival of my oldest daughter, Hailee.

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My mom and girls in 2005, shortly after the birth of my second child.


Sprinkles of Faith is dedicated in loving memory to Cecilia Rice…. Click HERE to visit my site and find out how Pink Zebra is changing lives!!   

About Sprinkles of Faith

I am wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. I have 5 kids who are amazing. I enjoy home schooling, gardening, and living my simple farm life. My mother went home to be with Jesus in 2013. Through pain and heartache my husband and I started on a new adventure that is changing our lives, Pink Zebra. Kenan and I love working for such a great company and meeting so many new people. We have built lasting friendships, gained self confidence, and earned income all while HAVING FUN!! Sprinkles of Faith is dedicated in loving memory of my mother. Check out my website to learn more about Pink Zebra. sprinklesoffaith.com "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as for the Lord, not for men." Colossians 3:23

6 thoughts on “One Year Later…

  1. Chrissy says:

    Hello, I came across this on Pinterest. My mom passed away from cancer on the day of your post. Feb 13th. The poem truly describes the pain I feel everyday. Thank you for sharing your message about your mom. Sometimes you feel like your the only person walking through life feeling empty . I appreciate your story and will be praying for you and your family.

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  2. Patty Huett says:

    I love your poem regarding your mother’s anniversary in heaven, I too lost my mother and it was so devastating. I love your website, but I am having a very hard time finding a poem for my granddaughter turning 1 year old April 17, 2017. I want a poem that will let her know what a horrific event it was when the Lord took her from us at the age of 6 months, she had a beautiful smile for everyone she heard talk. I’m just imagining preparing her 1 year old birthday party, but she is not with us on earth. She will be celebrating turning 1 year old in heaven. I have never felt such loss as I have over this granddaughter. Do you have any poems that would help me let her know we love and miss her and wish her a beautiful birthday in heaven. When I look in the sky and see a twinkle, I think of her. Thank you for listening. Bless you

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  3. syed akhila says:

    i am really sorry…you have lost your precious asset..non can replace it….just can do is pray…be bold dear

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